I was greeted late Tuesday night at the hotel by this front desk girl who was so sweet my teeth hurt! I can't define her overly perky and lilting voice and the smiling and bright eyed countenance that she welcomed me with. But I can tell you it really annoyed me! And it wasn't just a brief greeting - it was a long and carried out inquisition as to how I was doing and how my day went and if I was enjoying the holidays and so many other things before I had to interrupt her interrogation with the question "can I check in?" And then the eyes lit up and her voice raised a note and she responded "of course!". I went back out to the car and when I came back in - she greeted me again like she'd never seen me before!
And then all throughout the next day, I'd go to look at something or pay for something and I was bombarded by these chipper extraordinarily happy people that I would cringe away from and all but snap at. And the last time it happened in the afternoon - I felt that wave of guilt and the realization that I thought I was a nice person but I'm a stay in your own space person who doesn't like it when other people are out of their space and into your space friendly. Walk by me and say hi - please do not walk by me and stop and start a conversation... Too much. And with that I've concluded that I'm not a nice person because there's a point I wish bad things on those truly nice people. See how bad I am? Yuck. Maybe that's something that I need to pray about and work on - I guess it wouldn't be that I'd change and become that but maybe that I can handle those sticky sweet people with grace, not cynicism. Oh there are so many things I need to work on.... But baby step:)
I actually had to decide which friend du trip du jour I was going to pay a visit to in the Denver area. One friend that is from here actually lives in India. She's from Fort Collins outside of Denver and I actually worked in Fort Collins so as I drove around I thought "Oh - that's where Laura and I..." Or "I remember that from my last visit..." And then I got a little sad - but then I got a little inspired and decided to send her fam a Fort Collins Christmas package and so I started picking up CO candy and coffee and magazines. And now I'm excited! If she can't come to Fort Collins for the holidays then Ill send Fort Collins to her!:)
I stayed Tuesday evening in Fort Collins area and came back to Denver on Wesnesday after work and got to, not only meet up with, but see her hospital, go to her Bible study and stay at her place - my awesome friend Patti! I met Patti when I worked with her at northwestern in Chicago. And then her daughter moved to CO the beginning of 2014 and so Patti followed not long after and now she's managing a dept in a hospital in Wheat Ridge. It was so awesome to see her and even cooler to get a mid week pick me up by meeting with a bunch of new friends/family in her Bible study group - and after the day I had on Wednesday I needed it!